Imagine the Sara Bareilles song, "Just a day, just an ordinary day, just trying to get by."
Today was an ordinary day. The joys of being a stay at home mom and getting to love on my two babies. The trials of dealing with a nuisance of a cold and having to tend to poor Colin as he battles a 102 fever. Lucky, that Tim got to stay home today and help out. That we just ordered pizza in and my house is a mess! Today was an ordinary day.
Two years ago today was not so ordinary. Two years ago tonight we were holding our baby girl, Christine, and wishing things were different. Wishing that this devastating day wasn't happening to us. Wishing that something could be done to save our little girl. But that wasn't our story. It is a sad one and all of you know it. So, today I want to talk of the good that came out of it.
I think the first and most obvious one is that we have been blessed with a healthy baby boy. I feel so lucky that having Colin was part of our healing process. I squeeze him extra tight everyday and think of Christine and how losing her was part of the journey in him joining our family.
Second, is that we have had Whitney right here beside us reminding us of how fortunate we were to have her as we went through that heartbreak. She was our light and the reason I got out of bed and how I found strength to look forward.
And third, is my relationship with Tim. I have always been proud of our marriage but never more so than when we lost Christine. Tim was my rock, even though he was hurting too, and I am forever grateful for that. I like to think of that pain we shared as an extra layer that makes us even stronger.
So, I will take these ordinary days. I will never wish one moment away. I will cherish the hugs and the I love you's I get from Whitney, and I will enjoy the extra snuggles with a feverish little boy. I am lucky to be married to my best friend who I know is always right by my side.
We love you Christine and even though you are not here with us, you will always have a place in our family.