This past weekend marked Christine's 4th birthday. It is overwhelming to think about that day. Time has definitely healed our pain, but those wounds are still close to our hearts. Time, and of course new babies in our lives, has helped us move forward. But one element is that we have learned to live with that loss. We cannot walk around crying about it everyday. We have to be happy. We have to give our time to our children. But there is always a time for it. The tears are easy.
On Saturday Tim and I had hoped to go out to dinner but I was still bogged down with a mild flu and fever that night. So we ordered in Indian food and reminisced about our girl. We both agreed that Christine's presence in our life is when we take moments to truly soak in the happiness we feel when we are with our kids. Her loss really taught us to slow down and really be present with each other and be present even amongst the craziness that having 3 young kids brings.
Some days it feels like a dream. Did that really happen to us? But then I feel the tug on my heart and I know it did. However, we will forever be grateful for how it deepen our relationship and taught us to really enjoy everyday because you never know when your life will be turned upside down.
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