Christine's First Birthday

Today is a birthday at our house. Our baby Christine was born one year ago today. I have thought about this day since the day she was born. What will it be like. How will I feel. What will I do.

Well, we went about our normal day. Tim went to work. Whitney and I went to our weekly Bible Study class (I got to help out in her classroom today). I cooked dinner and went to my pre-natal Yoga class. And Christine was on my mind. Like everyday, the loss of my little girl still heavily rests on my heart. But one year later I can say that I am happy again...though it never seemed possible. I am thankful for the presence she has in our lives. We have grown so much in the last year and I am so grateful for the family I have and the little one that is coming soon. Christine has changed our lives forever.

We lit a candle today in her memory and watched it burn throughout the day. A little reminder she is always with us. We celebrated her spirit with some cupcakes. My amazing husband sent me flowers. Today was a good day.

This past weekend was dedicated to Christine as well. We decided it was time to spread her ashes. After we lost Christine, we couldn't wrap our minds around what we wanted to do with them. Months past and we didn't really talk about it. With the expected arrival of a new little one and her pending birthday, we knew the time had come. We decided on an idea that Tim had come up with last year right before she was born. We spread her ashes amongst some Cherry Trees in DC. Now every Spring we have a beautiful place to remember our little girl by. We know every year we might not make it down but we know that we can turn on the TV anywhere in the world and see this beautiful site. And to think that our family and friends will think of her when they see them makes me so happy.

Finally, thank you to our family and friends for the continued support. I feel relationships have deepened and conversations have been had that may not have been if it weren't for Christine. Every time you reach out or just mention her name, it means so much.

Gotta say hi to Mrs. Roosevelt!